ive made many attempts and been hospitilaized many times and havent gotten better. i know i will succeed one day  but i still wonder what happens after you die, especially if you’ve ended it yourself. I’m a little worried. Not that I think I’ll go to hell because I believe everybody goes to heaven. Actually I think living on earth is hell, but I’ve read some accounts of near death experiences and some people have said they were waiting for what seemed like eternity. i don’t think this will stop me from doing it but I still wonder.
