Well i thought i was going ice skating but my friend canceled and said that he had other things to do
Well i guess im going oit to have some fun today with one of my friends hopefully it goes nice
It had been two weeks since i last cut or burned or anything because i was doing the thing when you draw a butterfly on where ever you cut or burn and you have to keep the butterfly alive but today i killed it :c
For as long as i can remeber ive been the one to get mad fun of but today had to be the wrst i started my new school and i guess since i was the new girl people had to judge me right away but i paid it no mind plus i really couldnt hear them.anyway so i went into my second period and sat down and there was two guys sitting in front of me and i over heard them say i was fat and that i was ugly just when i was beganing to feel a lityle better about myself this happens […]
Like 2 days ago i took abiut thirty sleeping pills not trying to kill myself just trying to get away but i didnt tell anyone and my stomach has been hurting should i consider seeking medical attention
You know i had thought i hit my all time low last week when i realized i had no friends but ive realized that today i have really hit the nail on the head when i texted my mom for some advice on what i should do and i told her abiut my urge and she told me that i can go check myself into a.hospitla for all.she cared because she was done with me ive been crying every since then now my mom is gibing up on me too i really dont have anyone now,so whats the point in me going on im […]
So i went for a jog today to help control my anxiety and i ran accross a brige and i had the biggiest urge to jump off the brige idk whats wrong with me
Im having mixed emotions on if i want to die.or not i mean my head is telling me that i need to but my heart is telling me to keep fighting but im tired ive fought all that i can.fight i just dont know what to do
I guess this is true
I have 105 ibprophens that im going to take tonight i just cant keep living like this
Im done living this lie im going to tell everyone how the f__k how i feel and let them know that tomorrow is my last day on this earth
Idk why but today i just really want to kill myself,i am in real need of someone to talk to
I feel as though i waited long enough and im ready to die.so.i.have a plan dont know when.im.going to exacute it but i know it will be soon
The happiest day of my life is when i ODed on ibprophens and i thought i was dead i stayed sleep for two days straight only to wake up in the hospital
I hate that my mom walk around this house everyday and act as though she dont see the pain on my face,as though she dont know i desire to die,as if she dont know that this act is all a lie,and as if she dont wont me to leave
Everyone who has ever encouraged to to keep living are just plane old shelfish how could you want someone that you see suffering so bad to stay alive people may call me selfish because im only thinking about myself but why cant i everybody else is i just want to curl up somewhere and die a lady once told me that she didnt like people like me because her son is fighting to live while im fighting to die you know what i told here ill prey harder for me and her son to switch places because if i was […]
Okay so i woke up thinking today wad going to be a good day i got up went to work out with my mom but i left my phone in the car so at the end we left and i checked my text messages and my boy friend texted me and said that i have to much going on in my life and that he wanted to break up so i tried to call him and he didnt answer whhy are all the people that i thuoght was really close to me leaving me i cant help who i am trust me if this […]
The people at my church tell me all the time that im going to hell if i kill myself i guess thats one reason why i cant go threw with killing myself
I wonder if the new world order is still going to be put in place this year hopefully it will because all christians are to be prosecuted and that would be a nice quick way to die without doing it myself
Every since i tried to kill myself my dad has given me anything i wanted.some kids might call me luckey or spoiled or what ever but thats not what i want i dont need your sympathy or your empathy i need love i mean he dnt call to see how im doing or ask ow my day or week.been only time he ask that is when i call i mean what i did wasnt a cry for help but i mean since im still here you should atleast call to see how im.doing you never know when im going to leave for good wheather its […]