Today I stood there with 50 tablets infront of me. I could of done it but I didn’t. All I thought of was my best friend Charlotte. She tells me things will get better and people are there. Im fed up of the same speech from everyone. You’re not in my head or in my life. Nobody gets it. I just want to be happy
What’s the definition of insanity? I’m uncertain of everything now. Who I am, who my friends are, and who is actually there for me. Does anyone actually care? The amount of hate I get from everyone online constantly bitching about me and half of them don’t even know me. I can’t even get a bus without comments being yelled at me. People who promised to stay by my side have left me. I don’t know how much more I can take
I want to kill myself. I hate all the negativity constantly in my head. It’s too much to deal with. I want it to be over but there’s one thing stopping me. The affects it will have on my mum and sister. They are oblivious to what’s going on in my head and my life. It will crush them. But I don’t see how it’s fair that I have to continue to feel so messed up and depressed all the time. I don’t know what to do. I have no energy anymore. I want it to be all over.