I always used knives, more painful because the teeth of them pulled at my skin. But no matter how hard I would press they wouldn’t cut very deeply. Now I’m wondering about a razor blade…cutters always use those…but why? Is it easier? it looks like it. No effort to break the skin, to go deep. I’m thinking about going out and buying one and trying it
growing up all I ever heard was how lazy, ugly and dirty I was. I was told that reading books, the one way I had dealt with my depression since age 9, were bad. I thought it was normal to wake up everyday before school and cry and feel this deep opening of pain in my chest. The sadness is actually painful for me, I feel the whole widening, wanting to swallow me. It has no bottom to it, as soon as I don’t think I could feel any more pain I feel more. But a child shouldn’t feel like that. I graduated with honors, […]