endless_looper

I was writing this to chatGPT but knew what it was going to say, and feel too tired to rewrite it, so apologies for the messiness. I just don’t know how much more of this s**t I can take…it’s almost laughable how bad my life is and how screwed I am in terms of talking to people, or just being able to be in the vicinity of other people. Maybe this would be better off in a social anxiety forum, but I guess the social anxiety comes from being unhappy and guilty.

People often make fun of me, talk about me or laugh at me when […]

Hi all,

I’ve been a lurker on the site for a good while, I first came across the site more than 10 years ago I’d say, and started visiting frequently in the past year or two. I sometimes saw posts that I wanted to comment on but hesitated, but eventually figured I might as well create a post, even if it’s pretty bad.

My life is pretty bad, and pretty empty, and my mind is usually heaving under the strain of constant thinking…I think of it like an old computer that’s full of files and is sorting through them in the background, meaning that the available memory […]