Epiphany

Is a new day. There’s a  snow day for freezing rain so there’s no school.  I could still be sleeping right now if I really wanted to..

But that’s not anything that makes me happy, or even pleases me in the slightest. Really, I couldn’t give a damn if I go or not.

It’s hard to distinguish my emotions anymore. I’m smooth and sly on the outside, but on the inside I scream. Scream for something better. A life which does not chose to go against me. I guess the drugs don’t really help that..

MDMA is my DOC And I’ve been using frequently in the past week […]

What happened to me, why I can’t just act the way I’m suppose to. If you asked my psyc, he’d probably tell you I need to start taking my Prozac. Too bad my parents won’t allow it.

If you asked my drug counselor.. He’d tell you that I need rehab. That I have no other choice than to go to treatment.

But my parents, who’s to know what they’ll say? Sure, I’ll be 18 soon, but I still have to live with them. Oh, and they’re the type to deny everything.

My father, knows nothing. Always thinks he does. Always know’s exactly who to blame.

I don’t really know if I’m depressed. Apparently […]