I feel like I’m lost; I’m being sucked in to a black hole of nothingness. Every time it gets a little bit better I find that, quite soon after, everything is worse. It is like one step forwards and five backwards.
Lately, I keep thinking of suicide. Re-writing the letters I may or may not leave for the people closest to me. I have started to collect tablets again. Any pain killer I can find. My mother has stopped hiding them so this is a simple task. I have started to cut, deeper and more often.
I have nowhere to turn, nobody whom I feel I can […]