I actually had a decent day today… a relatively productive one where I rarely thought of killing myself and/or wishing I was dead.
I even forced myself away from isolating and hiding in my room to go study for a final exam. 1 of the very few responsibilities I have right now…. aside from “getting better”.
But I made it all of 5 minutes before I ended up on this site and reading through posts. Enough that I felt compelled to create an account.
In doing that, I know I just dig a deeper and deeper hole for myself where I keep thinking of suicide as an option. […]