Ive been contemplating suicide all year long. Now, the Holiday season is making it worse.
I’m facing homelessness. My kids father abuses me. My job and home are gone…I have no friends. my life just really sucks.
My children are better off without me
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FadingStar01
FadingStar01
Female. I used to care but not anymore. I used to laugh and smile but not anymore. People used to Love me and want me, but not anymore. I used to have a warm place of my own but not anymore. My little ones laughter filled my Home with Joy and pleasant chaos but not anymore. I was often called pretty, but not anymore. I used to be part of a team and had an actual Job but not anymore. I had goals and ambitions, but not anymore. I used to love to dance, sing, read, cook, long walks, good movies,nature,Church,babies breath,cuddling,cleaning,long baths, doing makeup, and so much more but, not anymore. I no longer exist just a figment of your imagination. I blend in with the scenery, nothing special about me. I don't love myself so how can you love me? I was never good enough for him or mommy or daddy or my own children....I just want to rest. I keep dreaming with my endless slumber.