Suicide. I’ve been dealing with this ideation for years upon years. Sometimes it’s worse, sometimes it’s better, but it’s always there. At the worst of times, I make a list of things I should do before I die. Not just tying up the loose ends, but things I should see through– birthdays, holidays, new seasons of television shows.
As of today, I’ve crossed off a big one. I’ve been covering for a coworker during their leave for two months. They’re back today, ready to go. I couldn’t kill myself while they were gone, but now… it matters less.
The things on the list seem less significant now.
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