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Fewingz86

i've been alone all my life, i knew and felt i was different from an early age, and only recently i've come to the conclusion that i'd like to end my life, I always wondered what this feeling was in the back of my mind, i can't really describe it, it's a mixture of isolation/sorrow/extreme sadness/euphoria/excessise talking/bi-polar/having high's and low's. Since january 2012, i've decided to start an experiment, which is to treat everyday as if it were my last, and see how i feel, then at the end of the year, see if it made me want to change my outlook on life, if life was still worth living. I'm rational when i'm saying this. I wish i was not a concrete thinker, I wish i was not born with these emotions, feeling like this literally my entire life, 24/7, i i wish this was not innate.

Matter Of Time

by Fewingz86 8/1/2012

written by Fewingz86

i just would like to put it out there, i’m not looking for someone to play a violin, anyways, i hate being calm and collective and rational about being able to take my own life, emotion breaks through the surface every now and then, but i just put a bandaid over it, which will only last for so long, soon i’ll run out. I’ve been doing this my whole life. i’ve recently started seeing a psych, and as of today my psychologist has put me on LexaPro, i know it will not make a difference, not what i am, not the […]

8/1/2012 3 comments