Im fighting a losing battle.. And im tired of fighting 🙁
I can’t do this anymore..its just not worth it..im tired of it all..tired of pretending to be happy, tired for pretending that did not hurt, tired of pretending that i mean something, tired of pretending someone anyone cares ajbot me..
If life’s worth living..i don’t see the worth
Never want
Never hope
Never dream
Never belief..
If i die today…no one will notice…not my friends not my family..no one. Maybe they will when they want to use me or blame me….
I wonder what drives a person to live? All i want to do is die and absolutely nothing changes it. Life is just not d struggle…
I dnt understand why i feel this way..i know why bt dnt understand why.. I have moments of happiness.. just moments nothing more.. i cnt even remember the last time i smiled without faking it.. Im tired of pretending, im tired of hoping, im tired of believing, im jus tired now. I really dont want to be this way, i dnt want to feel this way but things dnt change.
I feel lost and alone no matter where i turn..someone once told me dat god gives d toughest struggles the strongest..but im tired of fighting, im tired of pushing back, i just don’t have it in me anymore.. maybe if life was different..but its not.. Im in never ending cycle.. My one wish is to go to bed 2night..and never wake up..
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