I have a habit of rejecting the good and accepting the bad. I pushed away my girlfriend because I wanted drugs and she’s against them. I lied to her saying I was clean and how I’m never going back to that life, but honestly I am still living that life. All I look forward to is getting high. The other day she told me she still loves me and I was horrible to her. I told her to get over it that I’ll never love her back. I told her I was with my ex again, the girl who I cried about to her saying […]
I need more help but I’m scared to ask for it, I’m not talking about seeing someone I think I need to be admitted. It’s just I’m so scared to go and when I get back everything will be different. I know if I go I’m going to be just like my dad, I don’t want to go but if I don’t I’m afraid I’ll do something to myself. Just how do I say I need to go to the hospital?
I’m on the verge of giving up, everything is so messed up and I don’t know what to do anymore. I really want to self harm again but I’m scared that my mom will find out and send me to a mental hospital like my dad. When I was 12 my dad tried to kill himself in front of my family, I was horrified I didn’t know what to do and I guess I still don’t. I use to do a lot of drugs, I couldn’t function without them it was horrible. Two weeks ago I found out my girlfriend was cheating on me with […]