How do I explain to someone that I just don’t want to live? I’m not actively suicidal, I’m not going to intentionally kill myself. But I get a little mad inside when I hear about accidents that happen, illnesses and disasters where someone who didn’t want to die is dead and I’m sitting over here going, “Pick me, pick me, I want to not live”. It feels so unfair. I just don’t want to live anymore; I want to be done. I’m tired. Tired of pain, tired of struggling all of the time, the kind of tired that rest & sleep won’t ever fix. I […]
