My name is Kerli. I am 29 year old woman. I lost a close relative who was my best friend. She died at the age of 7. I miss her so much. I remember the day i found out she was dead. I could not cry. I was so shocked. I thought about everything and I realized that it was very odd that she had died. I looked at myself and could not imagine I would die young. It just FELT that I would not die young. Then I figured there was something wrong with her that drove her fate to be dead at 7. […]
I had such a hard day yesterday. I have schizophrenia and I have to take pills because of that but those pills are making me suicidal. The feeling I had inside yesterday was just awful. I was angry at everything thats going on in my life. I decided to react by killing myself. I was just fed up with all the pain and suffering. Today  I took an antidepressant, because I just can not live without them. Antidepressants usually make me feel better. Antipsychotics make me have depressin. Depression is a really bad disease.