How do you get through holiday when you are all alone, and yes I mean all alone, my son is with his father for christmas and im here by myself i have no other family i am just so tired of hurting and crying the pain is so great sometimes i scream how can i make it stop.
i have been divorced for 2 years and just cant stop loving him, even tho he is remarried, this man was my soul mate or so i thought we were married 18 years and ive tried everything therapy meds nothing is working and it just gets worse i cant live in this pain any longer. Â the pain is great i cry i lay in bed and just think, ive lost my job ive been told im crazy i want to die just to scared to do it because i will probably fuck that up to.