Tonight I wait.
I don’t know what I’m waiting for really but there’s nothing else to do.
I know I am worthy. I know life has it’s spectacular moments, its rare gems, its perfections and its laughter.
Yet here I am, full of hopelessness. Crazy with shame. Riddled with feelings of inadequacy.
Tears are rolling as I write.
I am despondent.
My daughter sleeps so I am silent in my anguish. In fact anguish is a strong word, maybe too strong for this state.
I am almost indifferent. Definitely a bit pissed off.
Ive lost my spark. Not sure if it’s worth chasing… I want to..
But I’m afraid and oh so so sad.
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