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i need help

Nothing New, just lonely

by Gloom
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sometimes it is just too late isn’t it? my social skills can’t be salvaged, so employability is in the gutter. i already knew that. i really want to confide in someone, i want the ability to, it’s like a superpower to me. i wish there were more websites like this, i can’t seem to find anything else apart from the popular one that’s been in the news.

i wish i could telepathically communicate my ideas to people, i can’t get over my barriers. i would be okay with not saying a word for the rest of my life if i could. i have been asleep for years. what’s […]

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hiking to oblivion

by Gloom
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it’s very quiet at this coast, not a lot of people on friday. a few people jump from here every year or so, can’t say how many exactly because their deaths are not always reported, the accidental ones always are though, perhaps they’re more interesting? more valuable?

do you ever talk to someone and so harshly reminded that you’re an utterly inferior human? without them even trying? i go through that a lot. what you feel is what you manifest in the real world right?

reading about these people who “miraculously” survived isn’t very comforting, i believe they must hit rock much sooner and tumbled to the […]

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this is natural

by Gloom
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i’ve been putting this off for a long time because i needed to justify this as rational, and this is hard to believe because all the support i’ve received suggests i’m a freak of nature. i want to be a rational and logical person very badly, i get upset when others are not.

i wish people would say plainly to my face that i’m hopeless. your thoughts are a product of your suffering but this temporary solution is wrong. you are wrong for thinking this way, apparently.

this is the only solution. i don’t want to live with my mental disability anymore. looking around, there is no […]

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To Talk

by Gloom
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I would love to have someone to talk to about my interests, what’s on my mind, to learn about people. to laugh until I’m hurting with someone, I haven’t done that in years. since isolating myself and denying myself stimuli, my personality has flatlined and it feels like my brain is shutting down. i want to learn to speak to people again, it is physically difficult to do. it feels so hard to return to normal, i find it impossible to talk to people my own age (20) because everyone seems so hostile, everyone has this “us vs them” mentality all the time and it’s […]

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