Tonight is it hopefully I’m done. What life has for me isn’t what I want nor what I can bare. I’m just numb the feeling hurts. ive got my plan ready. I’ve decided I always n knew that it would come to this. I’m to stupid for life to ugly to fucked up for it I can’t stand being in my skin a minute longer I’m tired of weeping I’m retired of being depressed I can’t get help I’m tired of being tired. So goodbye. I hope everybody is better of thani the future
I’ve faded down to the deep blue abyss what’s the point the voice in my head says. I’m too nice I don’t speak my mind I cut to get better i take pills knowing they make me worse I’m just waiting for the last thing to hit
I’m heading down a destructive path I don’t care anymore Im jut kinda done with it. I’m ignoring how I feel it builds up and I freak out have breakdowns and panic attacks. I’m not functioning right. Im to busy helping others trying to make ten happy and worrying about them that I don’t even help myself or even try to. I don’t know what to do I don’t think I want to get help anymore I’m just kinda here.
I’m laying bed alone depressed all day no one cares a cut again twice deep but who cares I have no energy…I just want sleep nobody really cares for me why do I try I just need to end my life it’d make things better for everyone.
I just want to slit my wrists I want to so bad..it’s killing me I have so many thoughts racing through my mind. I just want us to work out you know I want these thoughts to stop I’m close to being done again
I just want to sleep I want to sleep for forever I’m so tired of this life it’s becoming even more unbearable
Tomorrow I’m going to hangout with my boyfriend. I don’t want to be depressed I want to try and enjoy seeing one of the very few people whaci love and can make me happy. So I decided to take my anti-depressant just for tonight so I won’t be mega super sad tomorrow. It’s had a possibility of making me a zombie but at least then I can fake it well enough not to ruin our day together I just want him to hold me in our fort and watch old movies. I think tho that i might be okay tomorrow i hope at least.
I’m shaking and crying….I can barely breath. I lost a lot of blood I just want it all to be over just all this shit I want it over can’t do this anymore I really can’t
When I talk about my feelings to him.. I feel like he’s going to leave me I know I’m just being parinoid but still it’s on my mind when he asks me how I am and I feel bad if I lie but I feel even worse when I tell the truth. My thoughts are starting to get really bad again an I’m not even going to try and stop them hopefully ill be done soon and won’t burden anymore people
I just ate a tiny bit and I feel so gross I need to throw up then exercise…i feel so fucking gross
I’m a failure and I hate myself. .. Every failed suicide attempt leaves me with feelin more like shit and I cut deep and purge to punish myself and try and feel better i just want all this shit to stop
I tried to overdose last night on my antidepressants and I was throwing up all night everything hurt I was sure that If I could sleep I would t wake up and I woke up..
numbness is all ill ever feel I use to crave being numb because of all the pain and voices but now being numb for this long is just making everything worse
I just can’t stop crying I why am I so stupid how could believe I could be happy why’d I ever think I could be I don’t get it I just can’t I’m shaking
I fucking hate the holidays it’s always te same my dad beig a major asshole and my mom being a ***** I can’t do this anymore this is fucking ridiculos I HTE everything and can’t wait for the holidays to be over I have my date set
I went really deep but I can’t tell my mom that I need stitches but I can’t go get them I think it’ll be for but idrc…I just wish I can hit a vein tonight I want to bleed all the bad out…Im tired of crying and no sleep these suicidal thoughts are eating me alive.
I can’t fucking sleep…I’m so tired my face hurts my scars and wounds hurt…I just want to breakdown again and cry…
I tried overdose…so obviously nothing happened but I slept for for ever why am I so weak why can’t I just finish myself off
All I can think about is death selfharm ing dosent help anymore it hasn’t been this bad in forever…I can just see myself doing it and feeling nothing I just want everything to be over and done with I can’t do this anymore im a failure a worthless whore fuck up who’d be better in the ground at least doing somethin. Right…..
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