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hangingonbyathread

Depression, borderline personality disorder, anxiety, PTSD, eating disorder, self harm, suicidal. I'm a winner I tell ya.

my body, my choice

by hangingonbyathread 10/28/2014

written by hangingonbyathread

i wish everyone could see it that way…my body, my choice. if you were trapped in a hellish world wouldnt you want out?? why do i have to suffer so you dont have to? i hate myself, i hate everything about me. i am sick. i have legitimate diagnosis. why must i have to deal with them for the rest of my life?

yes there are ups and downs, but my downs are so bad and last so long the ups arent worth the pain of the downs. its my body, my choice. i should choose if i want to live or die. my life will […]

10/28/2014 7 comments

Control

by hangingonbyathread 10/28/2014

written by hangingonbyathread

i always have this plan in the back of my head. a way out when things get too much. i have attempted in the past (tomorrow is my one year out of the psych ward! which is a huge accomplishment because i cannot tell you when the last time i made it a full year without some sort of admission). my plan is simple. find a favorite spot on a beautiful sunny cool day. find a bench or a place on the grass. drink the water bottle that i would have previously opened capsules of meds and dissolved in the water. and fade away in […]

10/28/2014 0 comment