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Stressed Out & Helpless

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Dealing with the aftermath of my mother’s suicide has been very difficult and stressful.

My mom and dad had been married for 27 years back in March and they hardly EVER spent a night away from each other. If she had a business trip he’d be right beside her. If he had a business trip she’d likewise be right there with him. I know that none of us know how to cope with this the “correct” way…..due to I’m sure THERE IS NO CORRECT WAY TO HANDLE A SITUATION LIKE THIS. I feel helpless in not knowing how to help my dad heal. It hasn’t been […]

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April 24th 2016

by hdd7474
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April 24th 2016.

 

The gut wrenching day that I lost my Mom. My never doubtful amazing support system. My rock. My role model growing up.

She’s gone.

I wonder how long I’m going to continue to wake up everyday hoping it was a nightmare, and didn’t really happen? Everyday that I wake up and realize that this is my new reality… I feel like I’m being told for the first time again that she’s gone. I’ve gone through a rollercoaster of intense motions the last month or so. I’ve gone from shocked, to being extremely upset, to being angry to being extremely confused.

I have a billion unanswered […]

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Lost. Confused. Frustrated.

by hdd7474
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It’s been 36 days since my mom decided to take her own life. 

I’ve been an extreme roller coaster of emotions. At first I felt like it was all a sick joke that someone was playing on me, that feeling turned into absolute utter shock. Then came the intense grief of knowing I would never see or speak to her again.

I cried for hours on top of hours, until my eyes hurt and we’re stinging to the point of hardly being able to open them. My mind raced around from being mad at her, to being upset that she was gone, to trying to understand the […]

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