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hellfireallaround

i have a bowel problem and often shit myself or get so constipated that i cant shit for weeks on end and i think i may have been dropped on my head when i was little kid because i found dents in a spot that itches alot i have a big family and no privacy i dont even have a door because we are so fucking poor i dropped out of school when i was 14 i have no one to talk to but my 12 yo bro and my older sister and ever since i was 8 i have begged for god to strike me down because i think my younger sisters death is my fault i fucking hat myself i dont want to go on the only reason im here is to find a reason not to do myself in im sick of it all

life is what you make it

by hellfireallaround 12/30/2012

written by hellfireallaround

i was so sad so angry and i dont know why but its gone now and i am my own master my depression is gone i cant put it into words life is so perfectly imperfect
and i sit back and laugh for no reason i am so FUCKING HAAAAPPY!!!!!!!!!!! push through it if i can get past cultists and having no place to live you can do it too we are all in this together just think what would happen if you started acting that out others would stare at first but eventualy you find yourself and you help everyone else just by being […]

12/30/2012 2 comments

tell me why i shouldnt kill myself

by hellfireallaround 8/21/2012

written by hellfireallaround

i dont know what to say im so empty right now i feel like there is no reason why i shouldnt die i might have been the cause for my sisters death i dont know anyone i can talk to face to face i was inÂ crittenton mental hospital 5 times and after that i was put in spoffard for 6 months the only reason im not dead yet is because i dont want to hurt my family but i keep thinking how selfish they are why shouldnt i? i could do it now i just dont fucking care anymore maybe if it looked accidental that […]

8/21/2012 7 comments