I am bipolar i struggle to keep my shit together every second of the day it feels like i am in a physical fight with myself at all times i Thought this was a mood disorder but it causes me physical pain i feel like there is a Huge Boulder on my chest and a pitch black hole inside of me i cant watch anything emotional because it will trigger my sadness i cant disagree with anyone im Terrified of my own reactions I have huge gaps in my memory i have tried to take life a few times i Actually think that Death is […]
Aww another day of this face I have to put on daily the happy to be alive face. When inside I am dark ,sad,alone crying I have been this way since I was 15yrs old I have survived multiple attempts on my own life been institutionalized once or twice lied my way Out this face sometimes is hard to keep up that darkness inside me overwhelms me and I go somewhere and take the mask off like now in a place with over 360 people I am crying alone.but I cannot stay this way the mask must be put on again I long to be […]