I dropped online school few weeks ago, I tried to learn something but I just didn’t paid attention and didn’t make any notes.
Today my parents got e-mail from my teacher that I wasn’t learning.
They were so angry…
I cried for seversl hours…
They’d beat me up but I didn’t just felt the pain, I cried because I was ashamed of myself.
I hate myself. Why I can’t just force myself to do something?
I feel like my whole life is meaningless.
I want to end this but something keeps telling me to not.
I didn’t eat anything from 26 hours from now on.
