I find myself planning my death every week or two. Each one more comforting than the last, there’s but a single reason keeping me from carrying these plans out. I do love my wife, more than anything I want to spend my days with her, doing nothing at all, and yet I still find myself alone and struggling to find pleasure in life. Not because i have no one, everyone in my life are very open with each other and i do believe my wife and I understand each other to the core.
But every day, i fantasize about her death. For no […]