I wanted to say that it’s been a long time since I’ve ruminated on killing myself, but sadly that is not true.
I think about it a lot more than I’d like to admit. Almost every day in fact.
I have this weird fascination with the void. Someone once described it to me as the call of the void and I think there’s something really beautiful about that.
“The call of the void.”
Like there is something there drawing me towards it.
Beckoning…
Awaiting.
I know that someday I will die. So why would I ever want to rush to that conclusion?
The last time I was truly suicidal my mom found […]