my significant other has narcissistic personality dissorder. typically narcissists are incapable of loving and are extremely manipulative. he is maipulative for sure and im sure hes incapable of loving me, but for some reason i refuse to believe that. im aware of it but i keep pushing it off like its nothing. the person i was with before this, about two years ago, hated himself too much to love anyone. i strongly believe you have to love yourself before loving someone else, therefore i believe he never did love me. this has made me aware of a pattern ive created in relationships. i […]
ive been listening to a lot of Hotel Books lately and ive fallen in love with it. the lyrics are so good at explaining how i feel and the passion in his screaming and pain you can hear in his voice really allows me to connect. this artist is really helping me, so i thought maybe it could help some of you
Hotel Books – Dreaming Or Sinking (Official Music Video)
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=-Q2EzlLzWOk
ive come to a point where ive come to terms with giving up. i dont think the world is very pretty anymore and i dont really want to be here. im being swallowed by the town i live in. i miss people that will never miss me. i sit here feeling bad for myself. going back and forth on “youre fine suck it up” and “maybe you really want to die”. i just sort of know i’ll never really amount to anything and ive never been content with just living a simple life. im so numb that even thinking about hurting myswlf doesnt make me […]