I just turned 18 a few minutes ago and i hought i would be happy. i thought this was hopefully a new beginning. but as i lay here, only flashbacks come. the nights wishing i were dead. the moments shaking because i wanted to cut. the crying and sorrow.. ive lost so many friends in the last few months. all i have now is internet friends. its kind of ironic that internet friends seem to understand more. but, self harming tonight.
