IJustWannaGo

When I look in the mirror,

I don’t see me

I see failure and no beauty,

I see ugliness and sorrow

I used to be so happy

A bubbly joyful girl

I used to be excited for school and my friends

 

Now I dread seeing myself

I fear breakfast and tea

I know my friends watch me

To make sure that I eat

They scan my arms everyday

Checking for new cuts

Their faces falling at the sight of crusted blood

I know they’re disappointed

I see it in their eyes

Some seem to understand

Some over-react

Some look disgusted when I show them the scars

 

Long sleeve t-shirts are the new ‘in thing’ for me

Jeans with pockets to hide my fingers

Rough […]