Well i almost succeeded in dying. I was so close i could feel myself slipping away and then i could hear them. my ex-best friend finding me, the paramedics coming in and then the hospital. in the end i guess i survived. I’m still dead inside and have no reason to live. I just need to get out of this life i can’t do it anymore.
I’m drowning in my own sadness and depression. Just when i think I might be getting better I get worse. It’s a constant cycle of feeling happy then utterly hopeless and wanting to die. I can’t break the pattern no matter what drugs the docs prescribe or what activities I used to enjoy. I can’t find a thing in my life to lift this depression. I’ve tried all the things from before but nothing helps. I’ve taken to constantly listening to music to try and help but every song no matter how happy it sounds makes me even sadder and more depressed. I can’t win […]