if youre reading this there is no point. you might as well leave. its just another worthless piece of shit whinning about their life. im actually suprised im even typing right now. i havent eaten in 2 days and i have no motivation for anything. Nothing. im actually severly annoyed that im typing right now, my bones are actually aching. they probably ache from laying in bed for the past two weeks. i only get up to shit or piss or smoke a cigeratte. although im not shiting because there is nothing in my stomache. the only reason i havent killed myself is because im […]
im used to being alone and not having anyone to talk to….but im feeling really fucked up right now….nobody fucking cares and i dont think anyone ever will….maybe i should take his advice…”just keep on cutting. you worthless piece of shit.”
okay. so since nobody puts a profile picture for themselves on this site we get a picture of…? like what the fuck are these supposed to be? a robot? a couch? i dont fucking get it…it bothers me
Well. Let’s face the facts babe.
you’re dead . cold.
softly floating in your blood. your eyes popped out of your skull like they were trying to reach out and strangle me.
and i finanlly undrerstood what had happened. i was not shaken.
i completely regognized the act of brutal savagery that was before my own eyes.
it did not strike fear into my heart.
only regret.the sting of regret that you didnt die slower.
that broke my heart. if i had one.
My life hasnt been living…its just been a slow and painful trip down to the grave….no one gives a shit about me…if I were to drop dead no one would care. Would anyone care to know why I want to slit my wrists every night? would it matter if I did???
Give me one reason to live.
I bet you could…but it wouldnt matter…because the existence of myself in this game of life is futile. I have no friends.I have no fucking life. Im pondering my existence constantly, asking why? Where is god? Why cant I be fucking normal? What did I fucking do to deserve this??. Dont give me that “Oh, it gets better! Youll see!” Oh really? Been hearing that for the past 5 years and life has just gotten worse. I shouldn even call “it” “life” more like waiting. waiting for the end because Im too much of a ***** to finish the job […]