Everyday all I want to is cry. Nothing has every really worked out for me. My mother has gotten breast cancer twice and my brother is stuck with a chronic disease for the rest of his life. I can’t trust anyone because they are all judgemental fucks especially church, the one place you would expect to feel free and even there there is no peace. Only a bunch of hypocrites. I can’t talk to anyone that’s why I’m writing here, I can’t tell anyone how I feel in person I just seem to burden them. I tried to overdose on pills but it did nothing, […]
The option is always there. If your religious its thought that God decides when when you go but we have the power also. When your world begins to crumble I front of your eyes ..she come presenting herself as the best option there is. One jump.. Some pills ..some cuts to arteries and your off. To an eternal sleep, no pain, nothing because your dead and oh how I wish I could commit the act but I have tried and failed. Now just one big jump awaits for me but thought of putting my pain onto my family kills me and then app appears again […]
Overthinking. This is definitely a girls worst enemy. What causes our mind to get so many meanings out of one sentence..one word.
Love. This is something i have never experienced. Seeing couples together. Holding hands, just being together makes me envious. Finally the chance arose. I was finally in the fist stages of being in love and then my mind began to think. So close to finally bring with the one i love. Everyone would say that we were almost destined to be together. But almost was right. He would never show how he truely felt towards me, at least i didnt see it if he […]