Not a single muthafucka has ANY clue what it is to die like me.It makes me SO angry!!!!! Now watch my soul slip away!!!!! The feelings of vengeance are powerful but the only way to HURT you all is to melt away. SO alone! all it woulda took was ONE hand but not for me….the script is written, I HAVE to die…….ALONE.
For it nullified my life. Blindness ruined my life, DIEabetes fuckin killed me. I’m SO HUNGRY!!!!! can’t even fuckin EAT like normal people!!! I suffer and STARVE due to my fucked up DISEASE. Fuck this shit….DIEabetes killed me…..I snuffed me out to escape the disease.
Afraid……to sleep? NO….been drinkin all night so sleep will come easy. Heart pounding, I know this is THE END. The end of all the pain…..and all the laughter, orgasms, fun and happy. The pain outweighs the good. Will the gas envelop my lungs and render me unconscious? will the gas burn my eyes, making me cry harder than I already am? The FUCK ever! just fasten your hands to the chair and stare….with eyes shut tight, just BREATHE and go to sleep.
Been a part of this page since before I was blinded and nearly killed by a brain tumor in 2009. It’s been a long HARD road and not one second of time went by where I didn’t contemplate killing myself. NOW is the time….it has finally come. The rope needed to keep me out of suicide water has run out. I now must fall. All these words likely my last and NO ONE will ever know I even wrote these words. The ache of needing the “strength” to go threw with it is over. I KNOW it’s time. It feels shitty but also liberating. The […]