JBThazard

Every day, I feel like I’m closer and closer to slamming into a brick wall.

I have no motivation, no ambition, no energy, no moods, no emotions (except the occasional laugh, frown, and tears), no dreams, no goals.

I’ve spent years trying to get rid of my depression through talking to friends and family, medication, meditation, talk therapy, cognitive behavioural therapy, self help books, more sunlight, more exercize, new diet. None of it has worked.

I tried to better myself through grad school, and all it gave me was stress, anxiety, an inferiority complex and a wasted year of my life.

I tried getting back into romance, only to […]

7 months ago, I began to feel symptoms of major depressive disorder. All of the symptoms, actually. I am only 20 years old, I have had some bad trauma throughout my life growing up (my father went missing 9 years ago, I had a near death experience drowning about 8 years ago) but for the most part, I have been an extremely happy person. I was patient, stoic, and tolerant of many things that people were more easily bothered by. I had (and still do, sometimes) many passions for music, literature, my friends and relationships and other things as well. Then in September […]