blood in the sink, i can barely think. you can take what u want cause im almost dead. i just wanna. it feels like everyone is leaving me. no. im leaving them, and they haven’t noticed.
does anyone with major depression and also a cat recommend adopting a cat.
am i the one thats supposed to stop my mom from crying? where the fuck is my dad? they are married so im sure he can stomach enough time to even comfort her a little bit. he never comforted me, so im not really sure if he knows how to actually. maybe the best thing for him to do is remain ignorant so my mom can maybe pretend like things are ok when shes around him. when i was talking to my mom 20 minutes ago she just said, “i need to go, i have to go, i have to go.” really faintly and almost […]
friendships are supposed to go both ways. one supports the other when something bad happens and vice versa. but what happens when I don’t want anyone to talk to me or vent to anyone and I’m left to only give and never take. its my fault that I don’t want to take, but I don’t know what to do about it. Among other things, I feel really different from other people. I was with another person the other day and i was watching them make lunch. and they were so excited about making lunch that they would physically bounce around after they put together a […]
I hate watching my mom cry. I know I am the reason she is crying. I have to make things seem like they sorted themselves out so I can play to her unconscious(?) desire for things to be okay so she’ll stop wanting to cry. I always make people cry. People never make me cry. I couldn’t cry if I wanted to, and I quite frequently do. I would pay someone to make me cry. That sounds nice. I seem to have the opposite problem as everyone else, but crying isn’t a bad thing in my eyes. I think crying could help you feel a […]
fuck, fuck.