I’ve found myself back here again, curled in on myself, stuck in this tiny crevice of despair. For so long I was doing better, but it’s all gone back to the way things were before.
well, “better” is an overstatement. All I was truly doing in that time was chasing relief. I’d go from one coping mechanism to the next. Maybe I’d get a few hours of relief, a few days, then the pain would go back, and I’d have to find a new way. Therapy, medication, cutting, binging—whatever, it was all futile. I am so tired now. Physically and mentally I cannot continue the chase. […]