JSReynolds

I got arrested last week for masturbating in a public mall. I face up to 6 years in prison.

I turn 24 years old next Wednesday and the reality of my life is really setting in.  I am a college dropout and I have not worked in almost 3 years.  The last job I had my boss was abusive towards his employees and while on a job I threatened him with a bbq knife and quit my job right then and there.  After that ordeal is when things started going down hill.  I was in and out of hospitals at the ages of 21-22 for the majority with “bipolar disorder with psychotic tendencies.”  I have been paying my bills and living on my own by […]

Since this infestation I have been thinking what it would be like to be attacked by a large flock of pigeons and pecked to death.

Does anyone have any first hand experience with a bird infestation? I have been having a problem with pigeons constantly nesting right above my back door and shitting all over the back yard. There are kids that play back there and bird poop can cause illnesses. At any given point during the day I can go into the back yard and find at least 10 to 20 birds scattered throughout the area. The back yard is quite small to be having 20 birds in it. This situation is pissing me off.

I was in a bad mood until I heard a quiet farting noise.  I looked down at the ground by my front door to discover my ferret had lifted his tail up to the sky and was pooping all over the floor.

I posted recently about deciding to quit dxm for the long term.  So far it has not been too hard.  My mental health is drastically improving.  The only this is the boredom I feel now.

What is everyone up to tonight?  I always try to respond as soon as I can.

I am feeling better.  I had been drinking 2 to 3 bottles of OTC robitussin at a time about one to three times a month for about 8 years straight.  I decided recently that I don’t need the escape I used to get from it anymore.  I can already see a mixture of results since my last dose and abstaining.  Less depression, less suicidal ideation, and more motivation.

A pigeon actually flew into my house today.  It tore the house up flying around.  I finally caught the bird with a blanket and it pecked open my hand pretty bad when I went to throw it back outside.

Things are actually starting to look up for me.  This site is already serving me well as a good form of catharsis for my general psyche.  Everyone on here has been great so far.

The morning has started off good yet I have a mild pigeon infestation that is starting to move between the roof and walls of my house.  I walked out the back door and got bombarded by a flock and pigeons.

Every damn day I go through this cycle.  I always wake up feeling like a piece of shit, then I progress to the afternoon and feel a couple hours of new hope, elation, and motivation, then comes the nighttime and I feel like a piece of shit again.

Suicide is not a plausible option.  I would rather see this through to the very end.  Everyone risks death waking up and walking around every day.

I just realized today is the day I got a call from my ex best friends mom that he had snapped and shot a man for cutting in front of him in line at a Wingstop.

I am considered a social parasite.  At this point I can actually agree with societies views.  I know what I am.  I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder since the age of 16.  I have been in and out of hospitals most of my life for my failures to conform to the everyday norms.

I actually have been doing very good with myself the last two years.  I am off medications, live on my own and have not been to any doctors or hospitals in this duration of time.   I do not however work anymore.  I pay my bills with disability and use food stamps […]