I have never talked much about my ongoing desire to commit suicide but it is always there. Â I feel like I have constant struggle in my life. Â Struggle to deal with a painful aging body, lack of money and financial debt that seems hopeless, shingles in my eye that won’t go away, Â my dog is dying of lymphoma, no energy, partner and I have been hiv+ for almost 3 years and together for 20. Â I’m a hair stylist and need to be “on” in front of my clients and other stylists I work with, like everything is fine. Â All I want to do is cry, […]