Repeatedly listening to something that grasps a piece of what I can’t express.
I’m scared of myself. I’m reckless. There’s nothing that I want to do more than to die, it’s like this really strong drug that I can’t live without. And I can’t tell anyone about it. Every night when everything seems to become quiet and everybody is asleep, I feel myself pulled into an unknown destination which causes me to feel extreme pain and euphoria at the same time. I think it’s death. I am so scared of actually doing it, taking overdose, pulling the trigger, anything. I’m scared of leaving everything behind, my […]