Started off ok. Almost good. And its going into the shitter faster than I can bail out the water. Someone please tell me how to hang on. I dont know how. I hate the holidays. I am alone. I feel horrible right now. It comes and goes. I just need a reason to keep clawing to hold on – I dont want to die – I want the pain to stop.
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KeepBreathing4Now
KeepBreathing4Now
I am chronically pissed off at life. Disenchanted with fairy tales and happy endings. I mostly attempt to hold on by the skin of my fucking teeth every damned day without any help. I found it helpful for me to offer the tips or ideas from this all too long journey of 40 something yrs - to help those who hurt. Who are NOT being heard or at least feel as such. It is a farthole suck to feel so bad and no one will sit down and face you and say OKAY. Tell me how bad you feel. Not the shit where people say ok here is the game plan. FUCK the game plan. I need to connect to wanting to live. So you know who you are. If you get what I am saying - you feel relief in knowing someone is NOT judging you, ignoring your anguish and accepts your feelings as legitimate and real. SUICIDE is one of those ICKY shit topics no one out there wants to surrender to. PERHAPS if this was addressed without shame and help was available for ALL PEOPLE (IT IS NOT THANKS OBAMA) fewer would be closing the lid on their own fucking coffin. YES I AM PISSED. But I care.