I keep rewriting this. maybe overexposing myself. but i feel a need to get it out. i’m heading to my dark place and i’m trying to detour. i love my therapist, she’s amazing. and i’ve been with her for a very long time. i have some very severe mental health issues. we reach a place where there is a gap. where she has opened me up and then i feel dropped, excruciating pain, re-traumatizing, engulfing. sometimes it feels like … i can’t put it in words. there is a pain, a deep chronic, from infancy up…sexual abuse and neglect that leads to such a cavernous […]
