Kirito

So it seems like I cannot handle it anymore….

too much happened the past year in my life that went totally wrong,

I finally know the answer, its death…

but how should I do it, I dont want to feel any pain…

So after all these months in which I thought I got better, I am sitting here once again, drinking my Whisky, sitting in front of the screen and coming back to this site. I dont know what’s wrong with me, but I am crying again and I feel so lost and empty, why do I have to exist?

It is so weird for months I do almost forget about this webpage, but then suddenly I always find my way back here because I have suicidal thoughts again. I dont even know why because Life lately works fine for me, however certain stuff is just making my mind sick.

Whatever how is everyone doing?

Is anybody here who plays league of legends on euw?

If yes pls add Elèven I need a talk and dont want to talk here..

Hey guys,

I haven’t been checking in here for a long time.

How are all of you doing? 🙂

So today’s my Birthday, sadly only 2 people of about 9 which I call “friends” have called or messaged me, in my country its only 40 minutes left of that day so I dont think any more greetings will come anyways. My cousin was born on the same day as me he became 1 year old today, I had a whole lot of fun playing football with him in the garden, thats what cheers me up. Still feels really empty that 7 other people I really like and care of just forgot about that day mhh….