I’ve been trying to keep myself alive until I can actually afford the right equipment to make my exit. I can now buy my ******** tank and Gas Flow Regulator. It’s empowering to know I will finally be able to Exit On-Demand. With only a few breaths I will be able to leave all my misery behind.
After 10 years of being alone and slowly spiraling to being homeless and losing everything I ever had – I feel like I have put forth a diligent effort. For me to think that things will improve is only lying to myself. I’m 53. My life is over. The worst part of me anticipating my suicide in my mind is the empty void loneliness. I did not ask for any of this and I cannot wait to Float Away like a balloon….