She never should have come home, she shouldn’t have called an ambulance and she shouldn’t have saved me. I didn’t want saving. Now it’s 2 weeks down the line and I have to do it again. I don’t want to be alive any more. I want to be dead. What is so hard to understand about that? I promised to call the centre if I get thoughts like this again but what am I supposed to say? Hello, just keeping my promise to call you before I attempt suicide. I want to die. I hate her for stopping me last time.
