I’m locked into this idea of suicide, I read about it, think about how I can do it, but too chicken to do it, I’m manipulative and not sure why, I’m trying to break out, but I keep doing things to make others think I’m not well, when I really am very well and able as well, I feel guilty but each time I do or say something it’s like a nail in the coffin that I said it and that’s the way I’m going to behave. So if suicide doesn’t work I want to drink or I want to just be a bum […]
