lostsouloflight

I feel so confused.. I dont know what I believe in anymore and I’m constantly operating in fear and self-doubt.

Perhaps the only thing I believe in is the concept/importance of belief (e.g. in oneself, humanity, the sanctity of life..) Without that we are just lost in the abyss with no ship or compass. I visualize these foundational axioms of existence dissolving before my eyes.

I am “smart”, but lately my mind just gets me in more trouble with deeper and darker philosophical thoughts – existentialism, nihilism, antinatalism.. My OCD is sky high and I feel paranoid of everyone and every idea. I know […]

I am blessed and privileged and enjoy freedom in so many ways, and am truly grateful for that. But I am at a crossroads in life and it’s tearing me apart.. I am struggling to make any decision regarding my future.

Multicultural travel and experimentation with psychedelics the last two years have greatly opened my mind to higher states of being, but they have also led me to question all of my beliefs, motivations, values and sense of purpose. My biggest, if not only fear in life is the fear of regret, so I obsess over making the “right” choice, which I define as the one […]