I thought maybe, just maybe, I could be someone on this site. That I could matter to a few people here. But I was wrong. Nobody gives a shit about me anywhere else, so I don’t know why I expected it to be any different here.
She sits in her room
And writes out her sorrows
Getting it on paper
She can face tomorrow
A razor in hand
She slices through her pain
Destroying her own body
Trying to forget her shame
Looking in the mirror
She despises what she sees
The words pop in her head
“Pale, awkward, fat, ugly”
She stumbles through the day
Tells everyone she’s fine
She tries to force a smile
So they’ll all believe her lie
She chooses to be on her own
Loner is her middle name
Because people ask questions
Too complicated to explain
She lies awake at night
Afraid to shut her eyes
Scared of what she […]
Slit your hips where no one can see
Your good girl image has a reputation to keep
Close the door and let it go
Do it quick so no one will know
Rush of adrenaline as blood spills
Thrill so deep it gives you chills
Blood whispers words you can’t tell
Because if you did they’d give you hell
Clean it up and cover the proof
No one deserves to know the truth
Scars fade and leave a memory
And recent events give you agony
So cut a little deeper
Bleed a little harder
Kiss your beautiful perfect blade
And find a place for her to hide away
Bring it out when you’re scared or lonely
Til then…
Put on a fake smile […]