My eleven year relationship ended 15 months ago and in an effort to find new people to connect with, I joined a social networking site. Â I made friends and had a pretty decent support network for well over a year, but in December I deleted my profile from Google Plus. Â I had been seeing more and more of my friends posting about their happy relationships and the wonderful parts of their lives… and I was starting to hate them for it. Â Watching others enjoy their lives while mine was so miserable seemed to be self-torture. Â My posts were steadily getting darker and darker and fewer […]
Early in 2013 I had a premonition (or a feeling at the very least) that I would not see another birthday. Â That was even before I was diagnosed with a potentially fatal illness. Â I was 45 years old, newly single again and saw little hope of finding happiness in the future. Â My diagnosis in July was, in my mind, the universe’s way of saying I was right (sometimes predicting your own future really sucks). Â But then my birthday came and went and I hadn’t died the way I thought I would so I recalculated my fate. I wouldn’t see another new year. Â 2013 would be […]