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MCanxiety

by MCanxiety 3/5/2013

written by MCanxiety

I’m through, I tried to get better. Â I just want to stop the pain. Stayed in bed and cried for an hour this morning. Nothing makes it better.

I’m sorry to anyone who my actions are going to hurt, I really am.

To my kids:

I am so sorry, I love you so much but it’s not fair to you to be shuffled between parents like this. It’s not fair to have a dad who can’t function like a normal person. Both of you are the only reasons I’ve lasted this long. I hope you can forgive me in time and have good lives, I am so proud […]

3/5/2013 5 comments

Pathetic

by MCanxiety 1/29/2013

written by MCanxiety

So after learning of a painless method that I find comforting I have decided to try it again and do it right.

Over three decades of being a pathetic excuse for a person ending it just makes better sense. No more disappointment, no more failure. Since confirming the choice to end it I am a bit calmer. I am scared of death but more scared of continued Â pain.

I do realize the pain I will be causing for the few people I have around me but I didn’t make much impact in life so I don’t think I don’t think that will last long.

The only reason I […]

1/29/2013 1 comment