About a few weeks ago I felt this alarming depressed like feeling or simply a depression… feeling that I want to escape it all, felt like a heavy wave of everything and everyones feelings.. I began to read about suicide in details – methods, reasons, experiences and so on (I got myself a 4 meter long and 24 mm thick hemp rope for drop hanging, storing it in my car for now).. and then at some point I just collapsed and cried …last time I cried like that was in my teens maybe, I am male and 29 now.
There is still some remains of this […]